Friday, November 27, 2020

Personal Blogs about Life: My Birthday Resolution!

It's my birthday!

Here's my entry on Facebook and IG about it:

This is more about loving myself because I often neglect this very important thing. 

To some, resolutions are made every New Year but I decided to make one on my birthday. 

This started when VPS, one of the team members I handled requested to see me in person to give me a present because I have helped him pass his metrics. 

 It was when I realized how ashamed I am of myself. I don't like people seeing me in person maybe because I am not that social (I avoid social gatherings) or maybe, I simply am not confident of myself. 

Suddenly, it dawned on me that in my new position, I will be with people most of the time. They will see me during the support and I will be there also during the training. 

Hence, it's important that I look presentable. I need to focus on my skin and figure. 

As a resolution, I'll be on a diet -- I choose Atkins Diet because this is what's working for me and it also helps in my blood pressure and acne-prone skin. 

This is also best to partner with my favorite low-impact daily exercise. 

As of now, I don't want to start abruptly. I started cutting down with rice, bread, and sugar. I don't know if I can remove them altogether but if I lose weight simply by cutting down plus exercise, then this would be okay. 

I really like to see some improvement with my skin, though.

I started for a good haircut after a year. Last year, I had my hair rebonded. Now, it's only a haircut that is sufficient and I have my eyebrows shaved by the beautician in the Salon. 

At night, I also put on hot oil on my hair and I put on a mixture of egg white, Vaseline, and Kalamansi on my face for my wrinkles. 

My skin is really sensitive so I'd rather stick to natural beauty products. 


Maja Blanca is our traditional handa during birthdays and new year.
This time, Hywell together with his
Kuya helped cook the food. 

Now here's the thing... some moms are talking about accepting their bodies as they are. This is a good thing but for me, acceptance is just a part of it and should not stop there. 

When we know that there is still something in us that needs improvement and we are not happy or satisfied about and we have the capacity to improve them, then why not exert effort or money to improve?

There is a virtue in acceptance and being contented however, we're also working on what can make us happy. 

So, my resolution is not only to accept getting older but handle it gracefully. 

Just to tell you honestly, I never thought that time will come that I will find it hard to accept that I'm already old at 42. When you are surrounded by young people in the office, (and being bullied is sometimes inevitable), you would feel the need to look young and act young just to blend in. 

I don't know, maybe I am experiencing midlife crises early. I searched it's meaning and it goes like this according to Wikipedia: 

A midlife crisis is a transition of identity and self-confidence that can occur in middle-aged individuals, typically 45 to 65 years old. The phenomenon is described as a psychological crisis brought about by events that highlight a person's growing age, inevitable mortality, and possibly lack of accomplishments in life. This may produce feelings of intense depression, remorse, and high levels of anxiety, or the desire to achieve youthfulness or make drastic changes to their current lifestyle or feel the wish to change past decisions and events.
This definition quite describes what I am going through. Sometimes, I really don't know where to put myself and how I could act accordingly. 

Nevertheless, I'd like to believe that I'm doing these changes for myself. This made me happy and get along with myself better. I am also doing this because of my current position in my company. 

Although I am not interested in the promotion, I still want to fit-in not only in metrics but also in how I look. 

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